I am a very patient person but have a very low tolerance for nonsense! i can be dramatically passionate when it comes to my feelings, my passions and my family / friends.
I do not appreciate...out of the blue...emails about why my blog is set up the way it is! I love having you here--but if it doesn't suit your taste...MOVE ON!
There are so many other things going on in my life that i care so much more about than an internet blog! My blog is not a springboard for internet fame for me, nor am i desiring to gain a future career from it. I do it because i enjoy sharing...take what you need and leave the rest for someone else.
I'm sorry that you think i am so stupid that i don't realize that pictures can be copied with some effort. that goal is to make it as difficult as possible to copy them, to protect my children and family that i have used in these photos. You really should have let your intellect steer you in the direction of a ? and wonder why there are so many awful people in this world that manipulate photos, etc, that a person like me would even have to go thru this to protect her precious photos!
anyway...i say all this to say, because my first instinct was to just ignore the email and keep it moving myself, but then i realized that many of you may really be wondering what has been going on with me and many of you may know from ASG membership, but i finally feel up to sharing.
In December 2011, i lost my first born child. They say people grieve in different ways and i am now a true believing in that. I really thought that because i had be groomed and prepared for that moment for 20 years that when it happened and i got past the initial shock, that i was ok. I really thought that i was handling the situation great and i had so much support from my family and friends and the whole process when so smoothly..i just jumped right back into LIFE after a few weeks.
I quickly learned that grieving is an ongoing process. You have your good days and your bad and sometimes those bad days last for weeks! But the positive thing is that, she was such a happy child, that i know she wouldn't want me to be sad and depressed. So my bad days are sometimes shorter now and i know in the future will get further apart.
I am sharing this video that her Dad and I composed because although it's a little sad to watch, it gives me joy in being able to reflect. And maybe there are other "friends" out there that have lost a child that may find comfort in my video or story. I am considering support groups and have recently conversed with co-workers that have lost children and truly find comfort when i need it, someone else out that may not..so if you need an ear...please feel free to contact me...sometimes a total stranger with a similar experience is all you need to get you thru a moment.
Happy Crafting / Sewing and i'm sure i will be posting something soon, but for right now i am finding comfort in shoe shopping...maybe i will blog about that!
1 comment:
I am so sorry for your loss. At the end of October I unexpectedly lost my 24 year old brother. I am mostly having good days now, but every once in awhile a memory or thought knocks me off my feet. While he was not my child, I am watching my parents go through their grieving process as well, which is hard. The picture of your daughter is beautiful. If you need an ear as well I am here. God Bless.
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